Little bit of Me : Living under the Influence

Photography has always been with me. My dad had his own collection of cameras that he used to take photos with. He was never the wedding photographer, but he was the wedding videographer, maybe that’s where I get it from :) I use to take pictures with his old Canon 35mm film camera until it broke, through no fault of my own of course. I have always lived my life through pictures. I don’t think I can ever explain this properly, but I always look at pictures, especially the old ones, and try to connect with the person in the photograph and wonder what they were like, what they were feeling when the picture was taken. Yep I was that person, flipping through family albums and carefully studying the 4x6 photos for hours, wondering who everyone in the picture is, what were they doing, how are they related to me, where the picture was taken, if I am in the picture why don't I remember it and so on.

Even though I remember being this immersed into photography, I never thought of it as my career or my dream job. It was always something that was there with me reminding me of my past and present moments. Even in college, working in the darkroom, I was proud of my work that I produced, but never thought for a second that this is what I want to do as a living. It wasn’t until I had my daughter, that suddenly, capturing her every smile, every day, seemed so important. I never realized how much of an impact photography had made in my life until then because that is the only way I can preserve my today for my tomorrow. My role with photography is not just to take great pictures, but to document life and keeps memories alive and preserve everything that is important that sometimes we overlook or just plain forget. I hope to capture and preserve moments that matter and also create art that one-day my daughter can look back to. I want to clearly keep living under the influence of Photography.

My dad’s contribution in my journey to being a photographer was more than his influence; it was also his camera, a perfect reminder of my influence, my love, my passion and my drive.

Bay Area Baby Photography | San Jose | Baby Hailey

Six month old baby Hailey was such a treat to work with. She is just oh so cute and adorable and loves me :) what more can I ask for. Mommy loves taking pictures of this cutie and who could blame her, so when I showed up to take some pictures of Baby Hailey's six month milestone, she was not at all camera shy and full of smiles, giggles and growls. She likes to scare you by growling and thinks its funny, so adorably cute :)

Little Bit of Me: On Writing

I can totally (almost) relate to Joey; he is trying to write a nice letter and just wants to sound smart and thoughtful, but in the end it doesn’t work the way he wants it to, more importantly it doesn't sound like him. Now I am hoping I am not as bad as Joey, but nonetheless I wish the thesaurus would help me out with writing down my thoughts and making it sound so perfect that it would always resonate with my readers… Alas it sounds more like a conversation, that for the most part, I am having with myself. 

A while ago, someone said to me that “its ok that your writing is not that good because English is not your first language,” now that hurt a bit, here I thought it was at least good, but come to find it’s not even that. I am pretty sure somewhere an English teacher is cringing at my writing skills as she reads each written word on this blog post. If you are one of them, Thank you for reading my post and please don't grade me, more importantly on my written thoughts :)
Hopefully if you read it this far, I am not totally at a loss and maybe if I write more I will get better at conveying my thoughts. Just like Monica said " Be Yourself" so I will try to write just like that, as Myself.
To show that I really do mean it, when I tell you I am always at a loss of words whenever I have to write down my thoughts, here is a picture to show you how I look when I am given the task of Writing..... Just.Plain.Lost!

Hope this made you smile, if nothing else :)